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Starting Again

Starting Again

Hello everyone & welcome to my page. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. On March 5th 2018, I suffered a severe traumatic brain injury.  After a month in hospital, the doctors diagnosed me with the following illness and injury. From the fall, I burst my ear drum and had a hearing impediment in my right ear. My frontal lobe was subject to significant damage, with 3 skull fractures and internal bleeding. My vestibular system became impaired; my body could not recognise its position in space, and so all movement seemed disorientated and dizzy. I lost nerve function in my face (facial palsy), and my brain connectivity reduced to 10%. The neurones were not completing their paths and I was in, somewhat, a vegetable state. I struggled to acknowledge what happened to me. I lacked insight and responsiveness to auditory conversation and instruction. I couldn’t recognise family or friends, and didn’t comprehend simple life practices. Amnesia began with 5 second lapses in memory, whereby my brain then restarted, like a button pushed on a remote. In my mind, seen through my eyes,  a walk to the toilet was the equivalent of climbing Everest. An impossible new task which caused life changing fear and anxiety. I felt helpless. Social interaction and awareness became limited, causing me to behave oddly in various, usually simple, scenarios. I suffered from Aphasia; an impairment of language, affecting the production or comprehension of speech and the ability to read or write. I looked to doctors with confusion and fear, searching for the appropriate answer to the question, 'are you hungry?' scared that I would say the wrong answer...I simply, didn’t understand. My brain registered all experiences as if I were doing them for the first time, and with that I briefly lived my days being scared of everything, not knowing what each situation would present. All facets of life felt foreign until I re-learned them again. I slowly became more comfortable, and my confidence improved with each small stepping stone. Clare, my neuro-pyschologist, has enabled me to process this event, to manage grief and find silver linings. She has been a big rock in my journey, but bigger rocks are always found closer to home.  I owe so much to Cristina, my family and friends; for their strength and support, I am eternally grateful. With all my senses near- broken, and my mental depression amounting, during my rehabilitation, I found beauty in one thing. This one thing kept me going.  Nature. With a camera, unexpected tears of happiness would form. They formed when I captured nature it in all its mesmerizing glory. Not knowing the context of modern society, I clung to the natural presence of trees, sun and sea, as that is the part of the world which my body naturally understood, without the need for brain connectivity. I was drawn to nature. I cannot explain it to you, without sounding somewhat strange, but with everything that happened to me, my brain lost, my thoughts lost, unable to recognise the world, nature and photography made me feel, it made me feel...protected. It made me feel safe. It made me feel connected to something, when my connection to people felt lost. I would venture outside and take pictures of landscapes, animals, and life, all in its simplest form. Photography became, well... it became my saviour. My medicine. Taking myself out of our modern society’s self-constructed problems and troubles, I found, and find, peace and comfort in my natural surroundings; a place that I can really call home, a humans first habitat, barren of modern mental pressures and illness. Photography is, to put bluntly, my healer.   I am writing to you today to ask if you could help me. I would be ever so grateful for a small donation towards a professional camera which I am desperate to buy, in order to facilitate a fresh start. A camera which will serve as my medicine, a camera which could facilitate the start of a new career. A camera which allows me to start agai

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Love2Lexy

Love2Lexy

Hello and thanks for coming by. My name is Lexy, and the adorable pup by my side 24/7 is Jaxx.  About three years ago I was diagnosed with a rare genetic condition, called Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. I have the most common type of Hypermobile EDS. It's a horrible, multi-systemic condition that wreaks havoc on the sufferer, and can affect any number of things throughout the body. For me, personally, I experience a lot of pain and joint subluxations (partial dislocations) and often, full dislocations.  While living in the US I had sought treatment to find out why my neck was so constantly painful, why I had trouble supporting my head upright, and why I almost constantly had a headache, that was only relieved by laying down. While in the Us, I was also diagnosed with Postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, Chiari malformation and we still suspect Mast Cell activation syndrome.  With few answers, and a need to return home and escape my troubled marriage, I left the US. Upon returning home, shortly before Christmas, I started slipping in and out of consciousness. It was so quick and successive that I was unable to tell anyone what was happening or reach out for help. My blood pressure was tanking but we did not know why. I sought answers from doctors, neurologists and neurosurgeon team at Queen's square, I was sent for a supine MRI upon which they told me that I did have Chiari but that it was ''not symptomatic'' because of it's size.  Initially, I accepted these answers, why would they not be correct? But my condition declined further and after an incident with my University bed collapsing, I was left unable to lift my head from my pillow due to extreme pain and dizziness. I almost missed Christmas with my family as I was unable to travel for a two week period leading up to Christmas day.  I was frustrated and desperate to know what was going on. I emailed a doctor in Spain, a specialist within our EDS community and found the price for a consultation. In between raising that money and sending my imaging off, I started falling unconscious when lowering my head down. I attended the A&E in Barnet, where I was discharged because they couldn't work out why this was happening.  By the time I sent my images and received my report, my speech was impaired, fatigue was running rampant, and the period of time in which I can remain upright has greatly lessened (about two hours at a time without a break). My gait, breathing and eyesight are all impaired, sporadically too.  I opened the report expecting a few levels of my neck needing to be fused, what I read was shocking. My neck is very unstable, I have little to no spinal fluid flow. I was diagnosed with Chiari malformation and recommended a decompression surgery for those symptoms and the csf flow, Cervical cranial instability and Antalo-axial instability. What this means for me is that I need my whole neck fused, hard.  On the 8th of July I flew out, accompanied by my best friend, to Barcelona to have further imaging and meet with my surgeon. It was confirmed that I do need these surgeries urgently, or I will simply continue to decline at the rapid rate I have been.  I have been given a rough estimate of 50,000 gbp, and understandable, this isn't change I can grab from the sofa cushions, I need help to save my life. That isn't easy to say. Things have deteriorated rapidly since the bed incident, slipping in and out of conciousness, I lost control of my bladder and my spo2 stats drop frequently to below 90. I am terrified of how far I can decline, and what my body can come back from.  So please, if you have anything to spare, please consider helping.  Frequently asked questions: - Why wont the NHS fund this - The NHS have a few reasons, the first is that they don't like operating on people with connective tissue issues, due to the potential complications and risks we pose. They also dispute, despite numerous success stories, that the surgery is beneficial. They don't have a surgeon qualified

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Jim's FtM mammectomy

Jim's FtM mammectomy

Hello everyone & welcome to this money pot!With just 1-click you can donate to a cause* Give however much you want* All payments are 100% secure* Why Leetchi.com? It's easy & transparent!   This introduction being done by leetchi.com, let's talk about why I have created this money pot.I will first of all define the key words and then introduce myself and my project. This description will have a English version and a French version. EN: Mammectomy: It is the medical term for the surgical removal of one or both breasts, partially or completely.FR : Mammectomie : Terme médical pour une ablation d'un ou des deux seins, partiellement ou complètement. EN: FtM (Female to Male): individual identifying as male who was assigned female at birth.FR : FtM (Female vers Male): individu s'identifiant en tant qu'homme et a qui on a assigné "féminin" à la naissance.  ENGLISH VERS. I am Jim, a 23 years old FtM transgender. I am from France and I am studying management. I really love sailing and swimming. I would really love to love someone.The issue is, I cannot fulfill the last two statements.As a FtM transgender person, the disconfort I have towards my breast is increasing and I cannot think about practicing the sports I love anymore.Moreover, the following quote is completely accurate for me 'If you can't love yourself, how the hell are you gonna love somebody else?' (-RuPaul). I do not love my body because it isn't mine. I am a man and I crave for the body which will match who I really am. It has become unbearable and I cannot wait for the mammectomy to be done. By participating, no matter how much you will give, it will contribute to my journey to freedom and Life.I intend to be operated by one of the best surgeon in France for this operation. Before next year, I need to gather 5,000 euros to be eligible. This corresponds to approximatively £4,440 or $6,170. Help me making this year the last one to live like a caterpillar and the next one to transform myself into a beautiful and free butterfly.  Thank you so much! Have a wonderful day, evening, night. Jim Lurion VERSION FRANÇAISE : Je m'appelle Jim, j'ai 23 ans et je suis un homme transgenre. Je viens de France, de Bretagne plus précisément et j'étudie le management. J'adore vraiment faire de la voile et nager. J'aimerais beaucoup aimer quelqu'un. Le problème étant que je ne peux satisfaire ces deux dernières informations. En tant que personne transgenre, le malaise que je ressens concernant ma poitrine ne cesse d'augmenter et l'idée de pratiquer un des sports cités précédemment n'est même plus envisageable. De la même manière, voici une citation qui me correspond parfaitement : "Si tu ne peux t'aimer toi-même, comment es-tu supposé pouvoir aimer quelqu'un d'autre?" (-RuPaul). Je n'aime pas mon corps car ce n'est pas le mien. Je suis un homme et je ne rêve que d'une chose, c'est de voir mon corps être en adéquation avec qui je suis vraiment. S'est devenu insupportable et j'ai vraiment hâte que la mammectomie soit faite.En participant à cette cause, peu importe combien vous me donnerez, cela contribuera à mon long voyage vers la liberté et la Vie. J'ai l'intention de me faire opérer par l'un des meilleurs chirurgiens de France pour cette opération. Avant l'année prochaine, je devrai rassembler la somme de 5000 euros afin de pouvoir prétendre à l'opération. Cela correspond à environ 4440 livres ou encore 6170 dollars US. Aidez-moi à faire de cette année la dernière à vivre comme une petite chenille et l'année 2019 à me transformer en un beau papillon, libre.   Merci énormément! Je vous souhaite une excellente journée, soirée ou nuit. Jim Lurion

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I ask for help in treatment/????? ??????

I ask for help in treatment/????? ??????

Our daddy - Petrenko Oleg Nikolaevich 1987 was born, in the beginning of summer he was diagnosed with oncology, two weeks later, in Kyiv, after a few tests he was diagnosed with a diffuse B-large-cell lymphoma. Over the past four months, Oleg has undergone four courses of chemotherapy, each course cost us 40000 UAH (1300EUR). At the moment, doctors want to carry out an autologous bone marrow transplant in Kyiv, this operation will help Oleg overcome lymphoma. For such an operation you need 200000 UAH(7000EUR), with such means does not have a family, so I turn to you for help. I ask you to help my husband see how his two daughters are growing - Sofia 5 years old and Elina 3 years old. Нашому татусю - Петренку Олегу Миколайовичу 1987 року народження, на початку літа поставили діагноз онкологія, через два тижні, у Києві, після белічі аналізів діагностували, що в нього дифузна В-крупноклітинна лімфома.  За останні чотири місяці Олег пройшов чотири курси хіміотерапії, кожен з курсів коштував нам по 40000грн (1300EUR). На разі лікарі хочуть провести аутологічну пересадку костного мозку у Києві, ця операція допоможе Олегу побороти лімфому. На таку операцію потрібно 200000грн (7000EUR), такими коштами сімя не володіє, тому я звертаюся до Вас за допомогою. Прошу Вас допомогти моєму чоловікові побачити, як зростають дві його доньки - Софія 5 років та Еліна 3 рочки.

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Help Against Nasal Pain + Headaches

Help Against Nasal Pain + Headaches

Hello everyone & welcome to this money pot! With just 1-click you can donate to a good causeI have never asked for crowdfunding before but I feel it's my only option for the problem I have. I was born with a defect in my nasal bones, which as I entered adulthood affected my breathing to the extent of feeling like I permanently have something not just blocking my upper nostrils but it feels like something is lodged in my face. It affects my eyes, my vision and gives me frequent headaches. It is now affecting my daily life. I am a fulltime non paid carer, I do it for the love of it but it means I can't earn money easily. With the tiredness and pain my breathing causes not only can't I enjoy activities I used to, it affects my ability to be the best carer I can. I want to be full of life and energy for my loved one. It's also affected my social life. I have lost the few friends I had as I've been too ill to be a good friend to them. I'm not asking for frivolous reasons as my view in life is if a body part works properly and causes no pain I don't care what it looks like as I rather people like me for my character. Yet my nose is causing physical pain to me and causing me not to be the best person I could. My doctor will only prescribe a nasal spray which doesn't help the problem and I cannot afford private treatment. I can't bear another summer of illness. I will be eternally grateful for whatever you can spare. If a thousand or 2 thousand people could spare the price of a cup of coffee that would cover the surgery I need as the hospital I've enquired with will cost about 3 thousand pounds in total. Thank you for reading. I am grateful for whatever you can spare. * Give however much you want* All payments are 100% secure* Why Leetchi.com? It's easy & transparent!Thank you!

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Need real help with my ulcerative colitis

Need real help with my ulcerative colitis

My name is julian Derczynski, i am 28.I have a serious, delibatiting bowel illness, ulcerative coli 28.I have a serious, delibatiting bowel illness, ulcerative colitis, which i was diagnosed with it in 2009. It is an autoimmune response, there ls no known cause or cure for it and in some cases it can affect the entire colon, which it has tis, which i was diagnosed with it in 2009. It is an autoimmune response, there ls no known cause or cure for it and in some cases it can affect the entire colon, which it has done to me, as I had a colonoscopy in 2016. The results showed up and my colon was really inflamed and the nurse said that she couldn't check go all the way through, as there parts that were just too severe. It's absolutely wrecked my life not just physically but it mentally as well, as suffer from general anxiety disorder and as well as stess and depression because of my illness and how it impacts me.https://www.crohnsandcolitis.org.uk/about-inflammatory-bowel-disease/ulcerative-colitisI have chronic bloody diaheria along with a lot abdominal pain everyday and with nonstopsevere tiredness and fatigue. I get urgenteceny with my bowels and because of this im limited on what I can do and can't even go out for too long, to avoid having an accident. I'm very restricted in what i can eat as a lot of foods have things I can't eat, especially gluten, wheat, dairy and grains which makes my colitis worse. I also suffer from a lot Stress and anxiety because of how effects my life.I've tried numerous medications over the years but none of them worked and one of them gave me liver poisoning and really impacted my colitis along with severe pain, which didn't go away and i had go hospital and be put on steroids to help with the pain, but had noaffect on my colitis. I've tried a fairly new drug called remicade, (infliximab) in November last a few months ago.https://www.remicade.com/ulcerative-colitis/about-remicadehttps://i.pinimg.com/736x/4d/4d/ea/4d4dea98835ce4468b2e857c3ad294c3--ulcerative-colitis-fundraiser.jpgIts a fairly new drug under the NHS and since I've been taking it, it's benefited my colitis to an extent as I've noticed some changes in my symptoms, especially with my diahrea, but my Doctor said that i need to keep taking for a long period of time, in order for it to have big impact on it as it will take time. I have to take 100-mg of infliximab 3 times every month and 100mg costs £450.  https://www.nice.org.uk/guidance/ta187/chapter/3-the-technologiesThe problem is is that it's costly and because I'm not entitled to free prescriptions I have to pay for it every month, but because i'm on low rate benefits and that I've had them reduced recently, i can barely afford them on top of my other expenses. I've done a lot of careful and thorough research into certain diets that could help control my colitis and help with alliviating the symptoms on top of taking medication. I looked into the paleo diet in particular as it has benefited other people with colitis, with keeping their illness under control. It involves cutting out the foods I can't eat and replacing them with more of the foods that is suitable for diet. Because I'm limited in what I can eat, some of the foods i can eat are the free from foods, that i buy from Tesco and Sainsbury's. They are expensive and I'm not always able to afford them along with the treatments I need for my colitis as well as the other things I need to pay for.https://www.healthline.com/health/ulcerative-colitis-take-control/paleo-diet#paleo-diet-benefitsThis has impacted my mental health as well and i desperately need to get my health sorted out and get my colitis under control. This is a tough time for me and It's been notbeen easy for me to come on here asking for your support, as it's not something I would normally do but I'm in need. If you can just donate whatever you can, then I'll be truly grateful or even if you could do a fundraising campaign on facebook for me, It'll be much appreciated

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Action Medi-Drone

Action Medi-Drone

Hi i'm Andy, I currently work as a Medic on an Emergency Ambulance which I have done for nearly seven years now. I am also a Commercial Drone Pilot and I love being creative. I'm trying to turn my life around and give myself a brighter future with more stability and happiness. I'm hoping generous people like yourself will help me keep the dream alive.So the idea I had was to merge my two passions into one, so i created a new company called Action Medi-Drone Ltd.  Unfortunately I currently don't have the capital to get it up and running due to the extensive costs of the equipment.My vision, is to be able to provide experienced and professional  medical staff those who need medical cover for all types of events, up to supplying the medics for  tv and film productions. As a commercial drone pilot, i could also produce  cinematic aerial photography and videography for weddings, residential, industrial, sporting events, estate agents, agricultural for crop yields and vegetation maintenance, tv commercials, tv series and the film industry. Your amazing donations will go towards buying professional defibrillators similar to the ones we use on the Ambulances, so we can do ECG's and start treating patients accordingly and organise the neccessary pathway to help save time and ultimately their life. We also need suction units, resuscitation equipment, medical gases and emergency medical drugs and consumables i.e. bandages, ice packs, masks, burns kits etc.Some of the donations will go towards buying our professional drone with camera and batteries etc.  This has been a dream of mine for a long time. Unfortunately the banks and government are not in a position to help me fund this dream.To say a big thank you for supporting me, all those who donate and request to use one of our services, would get a huge discount on your initial invoice.I would like to say in advance, a huge thank you to everyone from the bottom on my heart for helping keep the dream alive.

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